A truth

Truth hurts but truth makes me stronger. The moment i know that it is not meant to be mine i am so just devastated but at the same time i managed to make myself as strong too. I won't feel that bad until i get total reject so what's wrong with me?

I just love to have a new lil brother again. I never found that a little care would result in a true confront so... *smile* We were playing Taboo and he is just so good with his father. Lots of common stuff~

Miracle of Love

I found this 2 very interesting. They are a miracle living in this so real world... If i would ever have love, i will hold on to it very tight and let nothing slips through my fingers. 


I already ponder to your heart but you never let me in. I wished i could have felt the love easier. I know i don't have all the qualities to let you fall for me but... who will in this world fall for me? No one will... i will still love myself for everything! Miracle., please work on me. I pray...

Deserves or not?

I don't know whether i deserves to be loved or to love someone. I always wanted to tell you how much you are in me. I couldn't spend a single day without reminding i must talk to you the next time we meet because we may not be meeting more than these....


A single reason for loving you is because Je vous aime

Differences and Alternatives

It's been such a long long time i haven't update my blog. Well, i finally faced the major problem of my life. Love and love more...

I have no choices and alternatives to choose from. Physically i'm very healthy and good but it's not just that i want. The physical that suits me is all i want. This physical is not giving me the confidence in finding love and approaching. If i ever want a normal life i need not have the differences between normal guy.

Then, inside of me containing to much of those stuff which guys don't need to have but i have most of it. Getting ready for everything, preparing being neat and taking good care of self. I just wish i'm not that discipline...

Lord, If things were to be different isn't it much better? Why can't I live the normal guy life and stay normal? I have to ask for more but a normal guy life one day. 

In Jesus name i pray, Amen