Calling From Elders

Elders in this context i not literally the elder we have at home but rather the elder i have in heaven. I suddenly receive this call to talk to him about his problem. Why? i don't know because first i never talk to him second, he probably hates me. But, why is the call so strong and urging? Isit me or what?

My final for this semester i coming like few more days and i'm still blogging my way here. This is just not working... What should i do to get myself in the mood? Actually i am in the mood just that i am evaluating myself highly. And it's just effing.. 

If i can choose to find one thing to aid me right now. It would be a person whom i loved and who loved me more. If and if only, cupid would find the way to me...

Special? No way....

It's such a pleasant day to hang out with friends studying whole at at Starbucks! Ya Starbucks! It's something new for me as i never actually study at places like that but surprisingly we managed to study till like almost all of them! Cool right? But it's just being together and kill time makes the moment precious. Oh... We had like latte, mocha and caramel. You should try caramel if you want something sweet, latte as something more or less coffee -like and mint mocha for sweet and chocolaty...

But happy times just ends so fast and we had dinner together. Seems like having a meal sitting with him doesn't make things any weirder and OMG i haven't thank him for the drink he paid! Thank you for paying for my drink! (Hope you read though) Here comes the whole day of event. Something that is so much different from usual.

Looking back it's a lot of fun time but it's never fun for me until i finally realise that being someone dfferent is more than a burden to me already. If just one day, like i said, waking up, feeling all normal hagging out with bunch of guys, how cool will that be? If i would ever get that only day and particular chance... It's just me alone sometimes... (nevermind the words in the picture below)

Just need a warm hug and a whole bowl of ice cream to cheer me up! All the best for tomorrow!

Dedicate

If you're a huge fan of Zac Efron, you will defnitely love this very post! I'm dedicating this to all my friends that - love is indeed not a game so if you're holding onto one make sure it is tight and if you felt it loose on one side start to let it go and don't even think of looking back.

Then, when i was still thinking that am i always flirting with people too much, i began to think that i really do. My friends always say i flirt and seduce but that's not true.. It's just my way of communicating. Perhaps i do sometimes... (look at that on the below! sweet!)

But isn't that just human nature? May be it's just my own nature because i'm lacking of that. I should say i'm cursed from love. Duh... But for one thing., i always believe in love even though it's not blessed...

Emotion Takeover

It's not just me being shaky but it's my emothion causing it. I have already done the best and you (damn you) rejected my work just saying not related. How dare you even spite that out of your fat lips when you never show us a damn smaple of how to produce a perfect one like our philosophy lecture did? He sure is 1000x better than you miss! Think over it. to you it's easy but to us we never could understand what you want until you show us and you never do. So back of before i would ever explode!

Oh my... i seriously miss you so much English 2! Why you wan tot leave... if you haven't leave that fat a** would never come and tragedy like that would no happen. I wish you could drop by and say hi.Even though is dreaming would dream come through. Oh., SPM is like so soon too so, boy! you just have to work super hard to get over with it okays? I am sure you are going to be more than fine... Miss you...

Desperate Desires

I just saw my friend walking into a new relationship. In fact both of them are my friends and i do hope that they'll work well together. I don't think they have meet each other for at least 6 months but they're already committing in a relationship. And he first say "I love You" in the cinema theater. Isn't that so sweet? I seriously wish i could have it too.. But who knows?

  

If all i want is just to someone who loves me. The kind of intimacy love. Can you give me?

True Love

It's such a wonderful thing to find true love and realising that it's such a beautiful lie at the same time too. But i still wish all my friends all their best to maintain the relationship they have. Those who are just starting, those who are in deep love and those who are going to engage! Don't even tell yourself isit too early because everything happens for a reason.


I am now at the same time fighting for my own way to recovery. However, i trust that i will always find the reason why i have all this at some time in the future...


Before i run, my brother here again the day before he leaves for Singapore... Miss him so much!


Good day!